For thee, the hammer holds, The task before me, seems unclear, but it my maker holds.
"The fact that it's 2008 won't really make much difference other than help me categorize and condense moments in my life when needed for recall in the future."
My dear, dear friend Laila said that, its funny, I just had a conversation about this last night with a new friend...
This life is so fleeting, we spend so much time worrying about tomorrow, when tomorrow may never come, BUT if we live for today, with no regrets, with no HOPE for tomorrow, then we miss on the truest blessing of all.... seeing our dreams... seeing our calling revealed.
I love my life, My friends, those who are new to my circle, those who are old, Ashlea, Lara, Laila, Sarah M. Jared, Preston... and those who I have just recently met...
This new years was a great view of whats to come... Music... friends... Girlfriend?? but all in all, the Lord has blessed me with so many great things that I cant help but praise him for it all... my job.... my house.... my car... my joy... but with that joy come pain... I thank the Lord for my son, I thank the Lord for Sarah Frank who takes care of my precious piece of Joy everyday... Its a thankless job and she does it so well, she is such an amazing mother and person, I know we have our differences, but at the end of the day I am so thankful that I met her, with out her, I would never have been able to hold my son... I never would have had the Joy of being in the room when he came out... I never would have LOST it in uncontrollable tears as I held him for the first time.. been there for his first steps.... first words... first "daddy"
To this day whenever there is a movie that involves young families... single parents... unplanned pregnancy's or the like... I get so emotional... its funny... I am such a strong guy... but that little guy... that precious little soul... is so close to my heart that the slightest thing brings me to my knees and reminds me of how much I love him, I live for him... that's why I am here... to love... serve... and raise him...
My love.... My son.... with out him I am nothing
he turned her head as if to hide
there was just no where to go
cause standing tall on every side
the mighty fear of letting go
he said my God I'm so ashamed
thirty years of tragedy
I still believe that She could change
but she pulled me down like gravity
he broke my will
But deeper still, deeper still
he told me morning was the time
when the sun burned bright and clean
and love grew fragile on the vine
all wrapped up in golden green
cause after all we know we are
and after all the same things
before the sun or rain could fall
it burned her up and turned her mean
its fire that kills me
its deeper still
tonight I rose up with the moon
looking down from high above
saw a world carved and confused
to valleys deep in need of love
and falling all thick with grace
heavens cloud of mystery
its filling every empty space
down to the depth of human need
this love that heals
is deeper still
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