Expectations

Do you remember your senior year in high school? the last few days of class, barely making it through that last day, hearing that bell ring and knowing that you Will never be a High School student again?

what came next...

summer....

then...

More school? How many of you had an idea of what was going to happen after high school, can anyone really say that they knew at 18 where they would be at 22? I would tend to say no, I don't think anyone really knew who they were going to be at 22. If on the small chance, you did, and you didn't like what you saw in your future, would you change it?

Summers abroad, Alcoholic weekends, Bible studies, AA meetings, skipping class, pregnant by your junior year?

so far from home, so far from your bubble, so many new exciting things to try, to see, to touch, to be touched... all these things are real, people get pregnant, people over dose, people drop out, people get mugged... but... people fall in love, people follow through, people get married, people get Jobs and move to bigger better places!

people follow God's will

The expectations that we had on our 18Th birthday will never come true, you will meet a wonderful spouse, you will make great friends, you will have stories upon stories upon stories... but they will be nothing like the stories that filled your head when you walked down that aisle on the day of graduation, in all honesty, they will be better because they will be real!

With that being said, what makes you think that you can place expectations upon other things, things that are just as important, as ground breaking. I know I have fallen victim to this issue, I place expectations on things that need to be cultivated before they are harvested, people like me, who are hurt, who are broken, and just need someone to look them in the eyes and say...

I am here

not to receive anything, not to gain anything in the end, but simply to love, and let love grow, nurture the pure Joy of learning, and breaking, and rebuilding of trust. I think I need to just sit.... and listen.... and wait....

because something is coming, something big, and fun, and great, and challenging, and hard all at the same time, and when it DOES come, and it will, I will be ready, waiting, with no expectations of what I want it to look like, because it will just be... just be... be what it is supposed to be, I trust my heavenly father with my soul AND my heart... he knows what I need, he knows what I want, he will answer the call... if this is it... he will bring it back.

I keep checking my phone to make sure it still works, I keep chcking my E mail...



You know I could write song about you