Unceasing

this cycle is coming to an end, I have people in my life now who care, who dont disapear for no reason, I know that my savior is here, and I am always searching for a closer place with him, I have been reading this book called "unceasing worship" it explains worship in a way that I have never thought about before, continual outpouring AND continual indwelling....

For so long I have felt "Far from God" but the truth is... he has always been IN me... always been rght WITH me, how many times do we hear the line "he is always walking beside you" well... thats not true... heis CLOSER... he is always... INSIDE me.. creepy... I know... But really, when you think about it, the thoughth that He is always within you, no matter what you do he is always there, and there is nothing we can do to chase him away, we cn hurl insult after insult in th face of his creations and he will continue to dwell within us. I find that inredably invigorating, also, very very convicting. When I am at my worst, when I am doing the things that no one knows about... he is right there... chillin in my heart... shaking his head saying "you were made for so much more then ths Jon"

I have recently heard the calling towards worship that was so prevelant in my life over certain times of my life, I am created to worship, created to give praise to my creator. I have always felt like this is a "musical" expression... but as of late i am learning that it is more a "life style" of worship... this life style started... and will continue... im not stoppin for anything.